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2014 - My First Update of the Year

February 3, 2014

I realized this morning I need to update my blog more often; I have a nasty habit of letting too much time go by between posts and then I'm overwhelmed with the amount of information I have to tell!! I guess I'll stick to the basics...


Firstly, STIFF™ has been canceled. I'm going to do this eventually— and the sooner the better— but I'm waiting until my lease ends in May and I move. I'm looking at several locations in Beverly Hills & West Hollywood so we'll see what happens :)


Secondly, the Trek serial: I'm back to square 1 with this as the police never recovered my stolen property from the home invasion I recently endured. My only solace is in knowing they got the fucker's fingerprints so he will be arrested eventually. Still, that can't replace the manuscript... for me or for you.


Third, the Underground Viking series: There is a chance that what I've written so far on the next book may be on my old hard drive. I've had the hard drive restored and have been too chicken shit to take a look lol. But I will at some point today and will keep you posted.


Fourth, Laverne & Surly has been indefinitely postponed. Again, I lost that manuscript when I was robbed and am still too upset to try and recreate what I'd already written. One day I will. But not any day soon.


Fifth, as depressing as those updates are, I've still got a lot of positive surprises in store for you this year ;) Negotiations are a bitch, but 2 of my projects are 99% a go. Still, I'm a little superstitious so I won't "go there" until we're at 100% :)


Finally, and on a more personal note, my therapy is still going well. I lost momentum after a few serious life events took place (the burglary among them,) but I'm back into push forward mode. I almost never have panic attacks anymore (knock on wood with me peeps) and my agoraphobia is slowly withering away. My therapist is brutal, but forgiving, so I'm very lucky to have her guidance.


I think what I've learned the most over the holidays— the period during which I was at my all-time lowest— is that life doesn't always work out the way we planned or wanted, but it's still a wonderful journey. Pain is inevitable; suffering is optional. If you find yourself going through a succession of horrible events, try to remember that agonizing situations are temporary... as is the depression that stems from them. Two weeks ago I painted Erased Existence (see photo) and today the sun is shining, the sky is clear blue, and I'm actually smiling :) 


~ Jaid

There WAS no place like home...

November 23, 2013

I've been going through a lot here. So much so that I don't even know where to begin. But I'll do my best... 

Monday afternoon I came home to a burglary in progress. Other than being shoved by the perpetrator, I walked away physically unscathed. Emotionally, however, I'm pretty beaten up for several reasons, the biggest of which because it affects my readers.

This thief with his apparent sense of entitlement took a lot of valuables— jewelry and electronics for the most part. Some of the jewelry carries a low dollar value on the street, but great sentimental value for me so that was pretty devastating. But the worst loss, and the one I'm still trying to come to terms with, is my stolen laptops... and all of my manuscripts.

I didn't back them up; a hard lesson learned too late.

I had roughly 11 manuscripts in various stages of completion on those computers. One of those books was a full-length romantic comedy I've been working on for thirteen years tentatively titled Moonshine & Magnolias; it was 3/4 of the way done. Another script, also 3/4 done, was a novella I've been working on called Laverne & Surly, a story I wrote for and dedicated to my friend Kristin Daniels.

The most difficult manuscript to report stolen to you is— was— a short novel that also happened to be the next installment in my Trek serial. It was 2/3 of the way finished and titled No Way Out: Dari.

Nobody knew I was writing Dari's story— not my family, not my friends, not my fans, not my editor, not my therapist— not even my mother. This book was supposed to be a holiday surprise for my readers who have been so patient with me as they waited for the continuation of the serial... and for my friends and family members who I knew would be overjoyed to see proof that panic attacks were no longer dictating (and ruining) my life.

I have been bursting into tears, crying off and on for days.

There is nobody I can blame for this but myself and I am more sorry than you can imagine. I never bothered backing up my work because I never believed this would happen to me. Computers crash, but IT people can fix them and recover the data. My house has high walls and is meticulously locked up whenever I leave. A robbery? Other than on TV I never experienced this in my life clear up until it happened.

Unfortunately, being burglarized has also called into question whether or not I feel my STIFF™ boot camp attendees will be safe living and working here. Until I figure that out, I'm not taking any more deposits for registrations. If the event ends up being canceled, those who have already paid in full will be 100% reimbursed. Otherwise registration will be re-opened and STIFF™ will continue as scheduled. (I'll let you know as soon as I know.)

I am wholeheartedly and genuinely sorry for everything... and I will be in touch soon.

~ Jaid 


Fuck You. Yeah You.

October 24, 2013


I dedicate this song to the brother/sister stalking duo...




Fuck you very much :)


Updates, FAQs & Shit

July 31, 2013

I need to blog more. I haven't been keeping my readers as up to date as I should and since I don't have time to answer all the inbox mail I get on FB... well... I really need to blog more!


1) My personal and professional lives are both in a period of transition and with that reality comes the need for a time of adjustment. Right now I'm pretty much in the adjustment phase. For starters, I've decided to live primarily on the West Coast. I never realized how inadequate the health care I'd been receiving all my life was until I got here; the difference is night and day. I can breathe again, I can smile again... it's awesome! I still have ups and downs, but they aren't nearly as drastic.

And then of course there's Venice Beach... this is the first place I've ever lived wherein I feel a complete sense of belonging. It's as though I'm finally home. And we all know there's no place like that :)

2) The guy in all the photos with me is NOT my boyfriend/husband/lover. He's Nick, my (very gay!) best friend. So please don't congratulate me on finding my happily-ever-after because Nick and I are both searching for Mr. Right... or Mr. Right Now... whoever shows up first ;)

3) My dogs are finally making the move to Venice Beach. I can't wait!! I miss my babies too much.


These are the questions most frequently asked of me. I'll be as honest as I can be with the answers :)

Q: Are you really going to be on a TV show?

A: I have no comment at this time.

Q: When is the next Trek/Viking/Death Row book coming out?

A: I don't know. I'm currently dealing with my performance anxiety in therapy. I don't want to set dates and then disappoint my readers again. I'd rather surprise you and tell you a month in advance :)

Q: Is it true you are writing for a TV show?

A: No. I am writing the pilot for a TV show (there's a difference) and will announce it when the time is right.

Q: Will you go out with me on a date?

A: No.

Q: But based on everything I've read about you, we have a lot in common.

A: I see. Well, believe nothing you read and 2% of what you see.

Q: Can't we at least meet??

A: I do one public appearance a year and that's at ®RomantiCon.

Q: Is it true that you are a lesbian or at least bisexual?

A: No. I'm hetero-flexible. I sometimes enjoy sex with women, but I doubt I could ever fall in love with one. Then again, I never say never :)

Q: I read that you have Panic Disorder. Is that true and if so how can I get help for mine?

A: Yes I do. I would recommend that you seek out a therapist with a lot of experience in CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) and DBT (Dialectic Behavioral Therapy.) I've had the most success with doing a combination of those 2 therapies. Good luck and hang in there!!

That's it for now. I'll update you again soon :)


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