I realized this morning I need to update my blog more often; I have a nasty habit of letting too much time go by between posts and then I'm overwhelmed with the amount of information I have to tell!! I guess I'll stick to the basics...
Firstly, STIFF™ has been canceled. I'm going to do this eventually— and the sooner the better— but I'm waiting until my lease ends in May and I move. I'm looking at several locations in Beverly Hills & West Hollywood so we'll see what happens :)
Secondly, the Trek serial: I'm back to square 1 with this as the police never recovered my stolen property from the home invasion I recently endured. My only solace is in knowing they got the fucker's fingerprints so he will be arrested eventually. Still, that can't replace the manuscript... for me or for you.
Third, the Underground Viking series: There is a chance that what I've written so far on the next book may be on my old hard drive. I've had the hard drive restored and have been too chicken shit to take a look lol. But I will at some point today and will keep you posted.
Fourth, Laverne & Surly has been indefinitely postponed. Again, I lost that manuscript when I was robbed and am still too upset to try and recreate what I'd already written. One day I will. But not any day soon.
Fifth, as depressing as those updates are, I've still got a lot of positive surprises in store for you this year ;) Negotiations are a bitch, but 2 of my projects are 99% a go. Still, I'm a little superstitious so I won't "go there" until we're at 100% :)
Finally, and on a more personal note, my therapy is still going well. I lost momentum after a few serious life events took place (the burglary among them,) but I'm back into push forward mode. I almost never have panic attacks anymore (knock on wood with me peeps) and my agoraphobia is slowly withering away. My therapist is brutal, but forgiving, so I'm very lucky to have her guidance.
I think what I've learned the most over the holidays— the period during which I was at my all-time lowest— is that life doesn't always work out the way we planned or wanted, but it's still a wonderful journey. Pain is inevitable; suffering is optional. If you find yourself going through a succession of horrible events, try to remember that agonizing situations are temporary... as is the depression that stems from them. Two weeks ago I painted Erased Existence (see photo) and today the sun is shining, the sky is clear blue, and I'm actually smiling :)